Acceptance. Man, that word gets me. We all want to be accepted, don't we? I do! I think it is human nature......except for those strange people (like my husband) who honestly and truly do not care what people think of them (lol). I WANT to be accepted, but I am not willing to go out of my convictions in order to be accepted, so I end up NOT being accepted and labeled "a goody two-shoes", or "stick in the mud". I realize that this post sounds so whiny and rude, but MAN, am I sick and tired of being trampled on by people who call themselves my "friend"!
I love people. Like, genuinely love people and want to help in any way I can. I guess with that comes the risk of being used. I should be used to it by now. I give my heart to those I help. And I love doing it. And for the record, I will never stop helping people when I can, because that is just ME, and that is what God has called me to do. I just need to VENT, ya know?! Again, I'm only human. But I also need to protect myself now I think. I need to stop opening up so much to people, laying it all out there, crying with them in my car as we hash out what is wrong with our lives, only to be dropped like a hot potato and left in the cold. It hurts. It is my RESOLVE to not be that way. I guess that is one good thing about going through this. Makes me NOT want to be that way. So I resolve to be kind. To help. To be friendly and sweet. But I will NOT give my undying friendship to someone who is just going to use it when it benefits them. Period.