Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Finding God in the Loneliness

There's a song that I grew up singing, and the chorus goes something like this:

Jesus never fails, 
Jesus never fails,
Heaven and Earth may pass away,
But Jesus never fails.

Have you ever been in a crowded room, and felt so completely and utterly alone?  That just blows my mind how that can be.  But I can tell you I have experienced it more times than I can count.  It always seems to come in waves, and those days are some of the darkest days that I go through.  It's so easy to say, well, God is always with you, you know that, just lean on Him!  Yes, that is what we are supposed to do...but how often do we ACTUALLY do it? 

I can give specific times in my life when I felt completely and utterly alone.  The days after my best friend, my grandma, died; the day after we returned home from the hospital after miscarrying our second child; I could keep going, but I really don't want to add more sadness to my already aching heart.  You see, now is one of those lonely times.  Those times when my house can be a non stop parade of noise, but I feel like I am the only one around.  My husband works two jobs, and I just got hired on for an online teaching job.....so he works HARD for us.  And I miss him.  But I am SO thankful for him and how much he loves our family.  Our dog ran away almost 2 weeks ago, and as much as that dog annoyed me, I'm the one that misses her the most.  Friends seem few and far between and my heart is hurting about that.

Have you ever been in a situation where someone who thought was your friend pretty much doesn't act like you exist anymore?  That can be lonely.  Or maybe you are far from your family, and you rarely see them but for the occasional holiday.  Or maybe you are a parent who is dealing with an empty nest.  Maybe you are single, longing for the love that a relationship brings.  These all can be extremely lonely times!  But these are the times when we need to lean on the Lord.  I know, I know, that sounds so over said, but its so true!  It is probably one of the biggest lessons that I need to learn. 

As humans, we need other humans to love us and care for us.  It's just how we were made! As women, that urge is even stronger.  And as much as God wants us to DESPERATELY lean on Him, He also wants to see those desires for friendship fulfilled.....but in HIS time.  In Isaiah, it says "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord."  We may not know why the Lord is bringing things like this in our lives, but He ultimately knows best.  I was listening to Frances Chan yesterday in my devotions, and he was saying that all of the stuff we are going through is God's way of making our faith stronger.  It may seems SO HARD as we are going through it, but God is trying us by fire, to make us reflect Him in our lives.  

So as you go through these trials in life, no matter how hard they are, remember the ultimate goal....to become more like Christ, and to have His reflection shine through you.  James 1:1-12 is such a great passage for this.  "Count it all joy, when ye fall into divers temptations; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience." 

God is always there for you.  He is working His perfect work in your heart, and daily we must give ourselves over to that work, and pray for the wisdom we need to allow Him to complete that work in us.  

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

You're Not Alone

   It's been a while since I have posted, and I just had to share this moment I experienced this morning in the car.
     There us this new song on the radio that I hear from time to time, and I've always liked it.  Some of the words are:


Oh, my soul

You are not alone
There's a place where fear has to face the God you know
One more day, He will make a way
Let Him show you how, you can lay this down
'Cause you're not alone

   It's comforting to know that someone is always with you, but we all have to admit that there are times where we just are plain lonely.  We know that God is with us, we know that He loves us, but we are also human.  Things might happen where we feel like God is so far away (even though He is NOT!), or that we don't have a friend in the world.  I'll be the first to admit that I feel that way ALOT.  
   So I was sitting in my car this morning, waiting for a store to open (hello hurricane prep!), and this song came on.  I was just hanging out, kind of feeling lonely and sorry for myself, when all of a sudden I hear a voice in the backseat SINGING THE SONG.  Now let me explain this singing.  My almost 2 year old doesn't really talk much.  He says words, but not really sentences, if that makes sense.  But he sings.  And when he sings, it's mainly just the last word of a phrase. 
   At first, I think, oh he's just making random words, that's so cute.  But the more the song plays the more I realize he is singing with the song!  For some reason, thosee ugly tears come.  Here I am, sitting in my car feeling sorry for myself, and my 2 year old is in the backseat singing about not being alone (and as I type this he is singing King of the World).  What a wakeup call, right?  My sweet little boy is reminding me in his choppy little singing voice that I am absolutely not alone, ever! He reminds me that God has everything in control, and He is holding me in His hands.
   We live in uncertain times, that much is evident.  We don't know what tomorrow will bring!  Right now, we don't know how hard (if at all) we will get hit by this massive storm.  But there is a truth that is certain.  God has a plan.  He loves us.  And we are not alone.


Tuesday, November 8, 2016

My Fellow Christian

Dear Fellow Christians,

I feel that this needs to be said, and I feel it needs to be said BEFORE election results are in tonight. Be aware November 9th.

Be aware of your speech to those around you after hearing the results of the election.
If they are not what you wanted, be aware of the hurt you might inflict on those who do not agree with you.  Be aware of the damage your words may have to your relationships.  Do not place blame on people who did not follow the path you followed.    Words you may say to others may damage more than relationships, it may damage your testimony.  God is sovereign above all.  His plan is higher than ours.  Be kind. Show love.

If the results ARE what you wanted, be aware of gloating and saying "I was right, you were not".  The people who may have voted differently from how you voted are proud of their stand.  Even if they did not win, it was THEIR opinion, and that should never be shot down.  God is sovereign above all.  His plan is higher than ours. Be kind.  Show love.

Always remember that through it all, you should be pointing to ONE--Jesus Christ.  He cares more about your love for others and your testimony of Him than any election.  Be aware of how your words could cause someone to turn away from the Gospel.  God is sovereign above all.  His plan is higher than ours.  Be kind. Show love.

God used many wicked people to cause His plan to go into motion.  This election is no different.  He can use ANYONE.  He can use a liar, a murderer, an adulterer, a thief, an individual with no regard to life, a person with "no filter".  He can use a saint, a sinner, a Christian, or an atheist.  Do not underestimate His power.

God is sovereign above all.  His plan is higher than ours.  Be kind. Show love.